hiya, Reader.
🍞What does the consistency of your own consistency feel like?
i observe that mon mari, Ludo, is often frustrated by my answer of “i dunno, you just feel it” to his question on “how much?” when he is attempting to recreate a recipe of mine.
like the delicious gluten-and-flour-free seed bread pictured above. 😋
for me, it’s all about consistency, and the search for consistency in something like bread is innately intuitive. you must feel it to know that you have found it.
is this intuitive way of knowing, being and showing up confined to culinary feats in the kitchen? that’s a question i’ve been pondering in this now moment: i feel a powerful pull to define—or rather, redefine—that word consistency for myself.
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+ is consistency showing up at the same time to the same place over a period of time, like the structure of going to work provides?
+ is consistency doing the same morning routine every day?
+ is consistency interacting with the same people, places and things?
is seems to me, contained in the word same, is both the larger question and the answer:
🤷♀️ is consistency simply more complex than doing the same things in the same order on the same day over weeks, months, and years?
❌ the answer, in my own life feels glaringly like, “No.”
🤷♀️ could consistency be as malleable as dough? could we be “consistent” in something for a time and then drop it from a different place of being consistent?
✅ the answer here, feels to me like an obvious, “Heck Yeah!”
perhaps it’s not about the outward appearances at all, then—your schedule, the people you interact with, the spaces and places you visit, what you do daily, weekly, monthly, yearly. what if all those relationships are dependent upon your consistency in
showing up for YOU. your energy. your body. your emotional state. your current needs?
that if you consistently show up for your unique rhythm, then those external manifestations will be more aligned.
is consistency alignment? i dunno exactly. but what if consistency is absolutely dependent on the current moment of how you are showing up for yourself?
maybe it’s more of a question of what if i bump my rhythm into this person’s/job’s/experience’s rhythm and be open to embodying how that feels?
Hmmm… just like the consistency of bread changes depending on a lot of factors—the humidity, a new oven, how much time you have to bake it, the temperature—we, living with each other in this society, have certain agreements:
when school starts—
the time you booked for your GYROTONIC® appointment—
social engagements—
work schedules.
so how do you then navigate the natural, intuitive way of moving in and through your life, the consistency of showing up for you, while acknowledging the relationships you have—and indeed we have agreed on—to time and other beings?
honestly, this is something i truly struggle with. being on time has always felt unnatural for me. as a result, i am late often. fulfilling my own needs within the structure of a family (a beautiful and emotionally high-needs 5 year old and husband) is not always a simple, pretty balance where we all feel satisfied. being interrupted in the flow of something has left me often feeling frustrated.
AND… being in someways, forced by choice, to flow into the rhythm of someone or something else, even as difficult as it may feel for me, is legitimately freeing. it’s not about compromise either. it is the opposite of that—it is presence.
even here in this space—i run the iNCOMING, a conscious community of seekers evolving together. i have the intention of showing up weekly and biweekly here in these newsletters, but that kind of consistency has not felt natural (hence, several weeks have passed and…crickets!). am i moving into a new frequency of what consistency could look like? are we, together, collectively asking for that?
i would love to know what consistency feels like to you, Reader. join the community and share your voice. what does consistency feel like and look like for your in your life in this now moment?
gros bisous, 🙏🤷♀️ stephanie